Faithful

Faithful by Alice Hoffman
On Sale November 1, 2016 by Simon & Schuster
Rating: ★★★

Shelby is determined to pay a lifetime of penance. When she's seventeen, she's involved in a one-vehicle crash that leaves her best friend in a vegetative state and herself in psych ward. Shelby is convinced the accident is actually her crime, and she's volunteered to serve as the warden to her own emotional prison. Instead of going to college, she shaves her head, festers in her parents' basement, only making human contact with her weed supplier.


I thought the beginning to Faithful was really interesting. A young woman in pain, full of self-loathing and self-abuse. There were so many directions this story could have gone... but I don't think it went much of anywhere.

Things just happen to Shelby. Good things. Even though she doesn't want them, doesn't think she deserves them, and does nothing to earn them. First, her aforementioned pot dealer turns into a stable adult and falls in love with her, and they move to NYC. She gets a job at a pet store-- happy to stock shelves and avoid both customers and co-workers-- and is promoted to manager because. Then she starts going to college, surprises herself that it just all comes so naturally to her, and the state of New York throws money at her for her education. She's also the most wonderful babysitter in the world and can fix an entire family with her reluctant awesomeness. She also rescues (steals) pets all over the city because she loves animals so much and knows what is best for them.

Shelby, in her way, is a total Mary Sue. She's so determined to self-destruct, and yet just so special that all the forces of the universe conspire to keep her alive and give her a happy ending. All while she wallows in her own, endless pool of self-pity.

There are elements of magical realism here, but they play a minor role in the book and felt a bit out of place with the rest of the book. Romance played a much larger role, but, in the end, I only became convinced that Shelby makes horrible choices when it comes to men.

Shelby didn't grow enough for me as a character, especially considering the timeline of this book spans over a decade. It's hard for me to knock this book below 2.5 stars, because it is well written, decently paced, and many of the supporting characters possess the charisma Shelby lacks. And I did enjoy the relationship between Shelby and her mother. Ultimately, though, Faithful fell flat for me.